i wrote this a few days ago and didn’t post it then. i’ve been away from myself (and therefor away from you) for a little while. i didn’t love myself much these last few days, i forgot who i was, where i was coming from and where i wanted to go. and it’s ok.
when it happens though, i need some time to realize it. i usually start by blaming everything that is happening around me, i feel deeply exhausted and motivation-less, i feel unhappy on the inside and afraid that it’s going to last. and i think this is the worst part for me, the fear that i won’t be able to go out of it, that i am unworthy and don’t know how to take care of myself. i could hear all my insecurities having a party inside of me, like “hey, i told you, you’re not worth it.” insecurities are so looking for being right!
it took me a few days to realize what was happening. to understand why i was feeling what i was feeling. to remind myself that it was all inside of me. all of it started inside of me. all of it started when i let my insecurities be stronger than my self-love.
this is why i didn’t share this quote when i wrote it. because i didn’t love myself enough then to have the courage to express myself. but now i do. now i remember who i am, where i come from and where i want to go. now i remember that i am my best friend and that i am holding my hand through all of it, always have, always will.
how have you been? i missed you. 🧡.