Forgive until you find peace. It’s not just other people we need to forgive, we also need to forgive ourselves. Forgiveness is a choice, you’re not selfish for not choosing to forgive. But I am, in order to set me free which is what I’ve always wanted, to be free & spread my wings.
It is remembering without anger. It frees up your power, heals your body, mind & spirit. Forgiveness opens up a pathway to a new place of peace where you can persist despite what has happened to you. I’m making a choice to be strengthened by my past.
I’m going to watch myself bloom without you. I’m lucky to be breathing. That’s what matters, not you.
It’s a self resolution that’s been a such a long time coming. I’ve earned this. I’m healing day by day.
Everything is a choice in this world, & brother... you chose to harm me without a care in the world. I strongly believe in karma, karma will get you for hurting me. You fucked me up in ways I can’t even describe, you made me wanna not live, you made me feel so worthless & you made me suffer for 16 years, but I’m no longer ashamed of what you’ve done to me. Without you I wouldn’t have become the woman I am today, I wouldn’t have found the strength to come forward to tell my story, & I wouldn’t have the strength to help other people to tell their story. I will get justice in my own way, by succeeding & living MY life the way I wish. You don’t get to control me no more & now I’m the one in control. I’m done, I’m done crying over you, I will hate you for the rest of my life & I know that gives you some sort of power but I need to be free now. I can’t be scared anymore to say what you’ve done to me. You abused me in every way. Being away weeks ago, we made a fire & wrote what we wanted to let go of. I’m slowly letting go of you, & I’m done now. I’m done wasting my breath on you.
If I can ease one life from the aching & pain, then I shall not live in vain.
I’m living tomorrow to be a better version of myself than I was today.
Brother, I forgive you, I’ll never forget, but this is for me. Nobody else. I’m letting go & forgiving you. But hell, I will rise. & most of all, I’m leaving behind the victim in me.
I’m a motherf****** survivor