Absolutely blessed to have made friendships for life during my admission here. I am a sectioned patient and I think there is so much stigma and negativity surrounding that label. However, if I was never sectioned... I don’t think I’d ever have made it here today. I’m a sectioned patient, however I CHOOSE recovery every day. I am a sectioned patient, however I am achieving more than what is asked of me. I feel no different to an informal patient, apart from having to have my leave authorised by the consultant and section 17 paperwork being done. I am a sectioned patient and I am still proud. If the mental health act wasn’t used to HELP me get to this place, I might not have seen my 23rd birthday... and HECK ima see Christmas and every holiday after that until my time is up!!
I work with the team that are trying to help ME. They are trying to HELP ME and are against my EATING DISORDER. Every other admission I have actively worked against staff and treatment because I felt they were trying to take away something so precious and something that was MINE. But I do NOT want it and I am so grateful and forever will be indebted to the amazing staff here, who see my struggle day in, day out. Who saw who I was, who saw the shell of LUCY.. now see LUCY for who she really is.
I am honest. Sometimes I mess up, but I’ll be the first to tell staff because I know it’s the eating disorder trying to cling on to what control it feels it has left. I’m respected. I am praised. I am THANKFUL beyond words. For once in my life, I, myself feel the pride & I don’t feel the need to receive any validation off anyone so much that I won’t make good choices if I don’t get recognised for working so hard. Because I’m doing this for ME.
We are like a family here. When everyone else and everything in life gets thrown at you... we have each other. I can’t wait to rebuild a life outside of here though, as I know It’s not reality. But it’s my reality for now.. and that’s okay. Sleep well my lovelies... or have a good day wherever you are. Same again tomorrow yeah? 😉🤭🌟💕
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