I get asked questions A LOT. Mostly because of curiosity. Sometimes out of ignorance😬🤭🤷🏼♀️ But I always try to answer each of them as best as I can... After the sarcastic version of course🤘🏼HA!
The most recent one: Why did you give up alcohol?
I used to answer ‘Because I wanted to 💁🏼♀️💁🏼♀️’ just to simplify it and avoid going into personal details, but then I realized someone is probably listening and needs to hear the message. So here it goes.
It wasn’t just one reason. And honestly, it’s hard for anyone to really understand why I quit drinking all together unless they were in my life years ago. And even then, most people didn’t know I was spiraling. I felt like I was living a double life. My mental health wasn’t so great. I distanced myself from family. I got crafty at going out with different people every night so no one knew what I was really up to🤦🏼♀️ And I didn’t ever sleep so that I could still do all the things- although I don’t recommend hustling on 3 hours of sleep, working 2 jobs, running at least 4 times a week, and going out every night. 💯 Percent TRUTH.
But that all changed as soon as I got into a relationship. I ‘settled down’. I wouldn’t drink for weeks at a time, but then when I did- I had the ‘go hard or go home’ mentality, and it would always end up being a complete shit show.🙊 And the boyfriend would be by my side helping me through the hangover that usually lasted the entire next day. More often than not, I felt so terrible that drinking didn’t appeal to me for a whileeee😅🤷🏼♀️ Hence: the reason why no one knew I struggled with alcohol.
Fast forward to the day I told myself I wouldn’t drink anymore. I didn’t ask myself “Am I drinking too much?” I asked myself “Would my life be better if I didn’t drink?” At that point, I rarely drank. The ‘party days’ were long gone. But I still craved some major change & personal development to go along with the breakup😅🙊 and figured that this would help me get to where I wanted to be.
Honestly, I didn’t know how much this promise would affect me when I made it. I was just taking a shot in the dark and figured it was a good jumping off point. AND BOYYYYY WAS I RIGHTTTT😊😅,,?