Remember a long time ago I did a Facebook LIVE talking about how when people say like, "hey, how are you?" They don't actually care so you don't truthfully answer?
Today when asked, I replied, "I'm not okay." I had an attack today that flooded me, and I just broke. Being on and having to function when in this state is incredibly hard, and also adds guilt into the already drowning storm of a mix.
If someone asked, "what's wrong?" I couldn't answer, since it wasn't just like something had happened and I was sad about it. I couldn't talk about it, because I legitimately had nothing to say. But I boldly answered, I'm not okay, but I will be, when asked today.
And I was shown love today by people in totally unexpected ways. And that meant so much to me. So to you who know who you are, I'm grateful.
And tonight, when starting to feel better, and knowing the outdoors would be so good for me, I took the kids and the dog on a hike. The kids were ridiculous the whole time. But the scenery was beautiful and I logged 1.5 more miles in my challenge, so hey, every little hike counts.
Now I am going to get kids in bed, and crash myself. Tomorrow is a bright new day, and I cannot wait to see all it has in store!
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